First of all, please forgive me for thinking this way. I know there are tons of folks who got laid off this year and this might come off as being very disrespectful. I am truly truly sorry for everyone who were laid off. I know having a job is a blessing and I honestly feel this immense guilt as well wishing that I were laid off.
I have been at this job for an year now. This is my first job after graduation and I absolutely hate it. The $$ is alright but I am always stressed out. The job is sooooooo boring and I have been struggling for a while now. There was no onboarding or training and I was just handed many projects one after another. I am so stressed about this job that last week i ended up having 3 seizures in one day. I have lost my sleep and I don’t find happiness in anything. I have suicidal thoughts every single day.
I have been looking for jobs for a while now but again since the market is bad I haven’t had much luck. I am very scared to quit and I know I won’t leave this place until i have something lined up. My company is not laying off anyone right now. I don’t know what the future holds, but, just the thought of being laid off, getting break for sometimes, and getting severance packages, and UI benefits has been my guilty pleasure.
And to everyone who were laid off, I really really hope you hear good news soon.