My nboss has worked maybe 5 days since the end of July. I’m carrying the team and it feels like my responsibilities just keep mounting from people that aren’t carrying their weight. I know we are all tired.
I want to leave so bad, but I can’t afford to. I’m so deep in debt from my manic episodes (I’m BP2) and I suffer from adhd and CPTSD. It’s really a miracle that I haven’t been hospitalized yet.
If I leave, it’s the end of my entire department. I know it’s not my job to ensure job security for my team, but I care for them all so deeply. But it’s truly a matter of time before I implode.
I just can’t do this anymore. I’m honestly shocked I’ve been able to carry the weight for so long, and I’m done. My relationships, hobbies, and health have all taken a hit.
I want to fully isolate myself (which I know won’t solve everything). I just really am done. I want to be put in a coma for like a month. I am so f’in miserable.
Sick of the rat race. I’m about to keel over.