I bootstrapped all of my 20s and got nothing for it. I work a job that has lied so much i dont have the patience to type it all. I have health issues i’m trying to ‘fix with home remedies’ because i cant afford a fu***** DR WITH insurance, and i can only save what i have because i buy absolutely nothing outside of mandatory things and room mate with 2 other people. I am burnt out working… i have a job with occasional options for ‘overstaffing’, has PTO, and paid holidays, and pays 17$/hr and is the best job i’ve ever had: and im terrified of leaving it someday because i just cant afford to work less than 4 days a week and this job let’s me juuuust get that done if i luck out and get overstaffing every week (it’s a work lottery ).
I just… dont know what to do anymore. I’ve had 18 jobs, i’m early 30s, i’ve done college. I’ve got nothing to show for it and i’m so tired of lying corporations and and corporate buy outs and manipulation tactics and just stupid bills forever. I literally cant have my job without a phone to punch in because they outsourced the act of being at work and being accountable for logging my time… so that alone is 420$ /year for a cheap phone plan + 200$ per year for the cost of my phone spread over 4 years. Then there’s the car eating 35% of my monthly budget i use to just get to work….
I eat literal bean soup. I’ve been eating that soup almost everyday for 15 years. I’m not sick of it, i can eat the same thing a lot, but i’m tired of working for no return. I’m tired of getting out of bed for bullsh**.
I’m tired of living in a world where no matter what job i have i will be prevented from doing most of what i want because it’s regulated out of my price range or worse: simply too expensive because i will never be paid enough to exist comfortably.
I feel like a rat in a very complex cage with no leverage. College certainly wont fix anything, i have so many friends with multiple degrees earning what i make.
I live in a system that says everyone should work really hard and have no life in order to afford the things not working would make you want…and pretends that there are enough positions that pay well that if everyone tries hard and then they’ll be fine.
There are never more high paying positions than low paying ones: it’s literally not how that works.
TLDR: i’m in my early 30s and so exhausted. I want my 20s back to redo being a relaxed low paying job worker. I spent my 20s stressed out of my mind working my a** off. I want my college money and time and best years back if this is all i have to show for it.