I (24F) started working at a corporate office job over a year ago after graduating college. It’s very fast-paced and I feel like I’m constantly getting thrown into the deep end with no room to breathe.
Long story short, my performance at this job isn’t great and this year I’ve been awful. I’ve been unable to meet deadlines with how heavy my workload has gotten in the last few months, not to mention I’ve never gotten a raise despite my growing responsibilities. This summer I fucked up twice by not being able to produce a huge flawless chart in time for a perfectionistic client. Everyone is so reactive to failure and my bosses seem frustrated whenever I ask questions despite they always encourage me to when I’m confused. Even today I messed up big time by not producing a single link properly, and my boss blamed me for not paying attention to details with it when she never told me how to even do this task in the first place. It’s wild how one single mistake can cause everything to fall apart and cause a company to start sounding alarm bells like it’s an emergency and we’re saving lives. It’s always my fault. I’m not sure why they haven’t fired me by now, but with yearly employee reviews creeping up, I know I’m going to get a ruthless review.
Is anyone else in my shoes right now? How do you cope? I’m in the middle of trying to find a new job because of this and I don’t want to mess up this badly at a job again.