So for reference, I (20F) currently work at a super small family owned business as kitchen help for $10/hr. I took the job after my friend who's worked there for 3 years offered it up to me, and I was having zero luck after a month of constant job searching. The family is incredibly nice and helpful, it's all a bunch of family and family friends working at a restaurant since like the 90s. I somewhat enjoyed it after a few weeks, and have been here for a couple months by now. However, I'm slowly becoming really unhappy with what I actually do, and once I get that feeling, it becomes damn near impossible to continue to push myself to go to work.
Before this place, I worked at FedEx for a couple months, and before that I was at another small food place for almost a year. I'm so upset with myself for not being able to just get past how unhappy I am, to the point to where I start to feel physically sick. I want to work and make money, but I don't want to stay someplace where I dread each and every day I go in, and therefore the days feel incredibly long and taxing.
I'm already considering quitting this job, but I feel so guilty, as I know I'm very needed especially on the weekends to take some stress off the couple others that work in the kitchen. I know working in general just sucks for everyone, and this may just be part of it. I just don't want to feel physically sick from even thinking I have to go to work anymore. Before these past two jobs, I've held down a couple for about a year give or take each and didn't have this feeling. I don't wanna be seen as a sort of deadbeat or lazy by my parents, but I don't know what to do about my situation.
Any thoughts or feedback on what I should do or think about would be severely helpful. I don't know if I should 'tough it up' or just try to find something else.