Ok so first off I'll just say I lift a lot of heavy shit, I can't lift a lot of this stuff fully because I'm on Estrogen (I'm transgender)
Also I'm just kinda tired mentally and emotionally, I have good days but I also have bad days. This job is literally soul sucking. Why did I sign up for this?
I'm trying to cope I really am but it's all going to come down on me soon. It's not like I can find a different job either because that'll take ages and the job market here is shitty anyways.
I just feel I'm wrong and feel like shit that this is what I do.