I will preface this my saying that the job role I’m currently doing isn’t my permanent job, I actually interviewed for this role as a maternity leave cover and missed out by a few points during interview. However, my manager has been landed with the shit until the actual maternity cover starts and asked me to help her. As things have dwindled down in my other temporary role that I was originally employed in (long story but also not my permanent job) I agreed to help her and took it as a chance to learn something new.
However, these last few days she has made a few comments to me which have for lack of better words made me feel a bit shit and incompetent. This job is all new to me and she is actually only learning the job herself but as she is my superior of course I’m relying on her to direct me. However, these last few days she has said a few things that has made me feel like she expects me to know what I’m doing or just go ahead and wing things as she is which I’m not comfortable to do. We work in healthcare, albeit an admin role, but I’m not going to wing it when the service I’m currently working for actually just had 3 year enquiry over the work of a specific consultant.
I’ve literally only been doing this job since last Tuesday and yesterday she was showing me a bunch of folders and said that she wants to have all these spreadsheets set up for the next month the same as last months and says “this is why I need you to do this so I can start scheduling” as if I was to already know to do this when 1 she hadn’t even asked me yet and 2 she ended up giving me literally over 2000 patient records to close on our booking system so I didn’t have time to do anything else these past few days. She made it sound like I was keeping her back. I told her I would do that as soon as possible and worked on it yesterday. She then reiterated that she can deal with all the calls and everything else but she needs me to do this one thing, again as if I was just to read her mind. Never mind that she actually isn’t even taking the calls, I’m taking them all and then when I ask her advice as obviously I don’t know what I’m doing she’s asking “have you checked this, have you checked that, contact this person, contact that person” as if I shouldn’t be asking her these things and should know to direct my queries to a bunch of other people I don’t even know.
So I worked on what she asked me to do yesterday and with all the calls and what not I didn’t have time to complete so was going to work on today only to find out she has gone ahead and asked another employee who starts an hour earlier than me to do it which to me is very impatient and also takes for granted the work I had already done and has wasted my time. This also makes me feel like I’m just not quick enough or that she’s annoyed I wouldn’t come in earlier (without even being asked of course) like she does nearly everyday just do to this one thing that realistically could wait until I’m done. Then I had another query from a call I took this morning and her answer was “contact Dr such and such, she’s our go to about things like this” as if I shouldn’t be asking her.
I know she’s probably frustrated being landed with extra work but how does she think I feel helping out with a job that they didn’t even think I was good enough to be given in the first place? Tbh I’m just glad I didn’t get the job and I can go back to my old, easier job. If this is the level of support you get it just isn’t good enough.