Hey – I'm really starting to hate my job and am having a hard time coming to terms with my own feelings and how to proceed.
29 – Neurospicy – Manager
I've only ever quit one Job and that was because I came into work crying ever day for about two months. Quitting is…..terrifying. there are no words to describe how scared I'm feeling and if what I'm experiencing is worth quitting over.
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Vacation Property Management. My responsibility is to manage the home. Out of TP? I run it. TV not working? I fix it. Not Hot Water? I'll troubleshoot. Owners furious because of a 2 stat review? My job to calm them down/ get yelled at for it. It's all becoming too much, my weekends are spent glued to my phone, I dont get any time in the summer months to do take a vacation. My transportation is my own vehicle, they give me a small portion for gas/maintenance monthly, but truly it's not enough to cover it. It's also packed to the gills with supplies at all times, I haven't seen my back seats since I started this position.
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My mental health has tanked. Anxiety attacks that lead to fainting if not caught and managed. I'm a type 2, the exercise I get from the job has helped me manage my sugar and weight, but it's also hard because I can't always store food in my car for lunches.
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The company. Its….kind of not great. Theu give us bonuses and I make 52k a year, but the expectations are ridiculous. They keep changing the goal post, they keep rolling out initiatives that are supposed to “save money” but end up making a fuck ton more work for us, work that we can't accomplish with our already dwindled team. They constantly do lay offs and don't really vet who they cut, they just go down a list.
Maybe om being too soft, but I'm tired. I'm constantly stressed. I'm just…unhappy. but my brain won't just accept that I can find other work, I'm a fucking work horse and LOVE helping people, but all it feels like I'm doing is picking up after people who have the luxury of owning multiple homes and being treated like a tool by my own company.
Opinions?