Last October, things were getting extremely toxic at at my previous job. My boss had become toxic toward my hours, my home life – and overall made me extremely uncomfortable at work. Her attitude toward me went from “the utmost glowing review and wage increase” – to “you need to work later and support second shift. Your wife can take care of your kids”. This was likely brought on by the VP they had hired last January. I was at that job 9 years and was one of the most experienced people in that department.
On November 4th, 2022 after debating on quitting, I arrived at work with a letter of resignation when I was let go. Jokes on them, they gave me severance.
I was hired at my current company in January. It's a hybrid position (when I was on site everyday at the other job). Less work, more time off, but a longer commute and I work a half hour longer than I did at my other job.
But I feel more depressed and going through a crisis with this job, than I did at my other job, and I've been here ten months.
I hate the industry. I had thought my previous company would be the first and only job I had in the field, because push came to shove, I'd find something else.
I'm in my mid thirties. I have no idea what I want in life. I have a wife, two kids, a house. I almost prefer going to do something blue collar and locally than sitting in traffic and being part of the corporate bullshit grind. Day in and day out I get into my head. I don't have experience in any other industry. I have a science degree and experience in big pharma. I hate it.
I'm also extremely mad, still, at the situation I was put in last year. I was okay in my other job and then two managers had some thing against me and let me go. They're not even there anymore. I'm mad I was put in that situation. I'm mad at the circumstances that forced me out. And I'm mad that I had to start over and still have no direction in life.
I know this is selfish of me because I have a well paying job, that's not really toxic. I just don't know what to do. I can't do this corporate shit for the next 40 years (I say 40 because I will likely never retire, or die before I can).