Long story short, I don't really know if I am an introvert or extrovert. I joined this company for about 2 years now, and at first I was really shy and reversed and kept to myself. After one year I found a group of people that I am comfortable with, and more relaxed. I became an extrovert but with certain people only. When I am extrovert I will smile and talk and joke around alot. For that, I hate myself sometimes if not most of the time being a laughing machine at work. I am drained and I hate that I am become more friendly and talkative around people I shouldn't (like being friendly with my manager, I don't wanna be a kiss-ass but whenever I am friendly with her I can't help but felt like I stooped down so low I can't even go deeper). I think I should've remain a calm cool and collective person.
What do I do to avoid burnt-out everyday after work?. I'm so tired of this all.