i don’t even know if this is worth posting about, but i’m just frustrated and want to vent.
background, homeschooled 26m with no GED/college, been working various customer service and sales jobs since i was 17, most recently and most profitably was a furniture sales guy with 3 years on the floor, but i fell into a bad way and hardcore drug use that put me into a tailspin mentally and emotionally. i’m 2 years clean with no intention on falling back into old habits.
i’ve been working as a part-time employee at a major theme park for about a year and a half now. pay across the board is alright, all of us got a pretty decent raise earlier in the summer, and hours are usually pretty easy to pickup. despite us only getting scheduled 8-12hrs a week by our management, i’ve been picking up and working 32-40hrs a week for most of the time i’ve been there, and haven’t missed any days since EARLY in the summer. we have a points-based attendance system, and my record is pretty flawless other than a minor verbal warning from when i first started.
i’ve been attempting to transfer into a full-time role within my department since springtime of this year, but we’re at capacity on those types of roles, with priority being placed on giving them to full-time employees that transfer in from other areas. okaaaaaaay, i can deal with that. further attempts to transfer into other areas that have full-time positions available have been met with “we’re not accepting applications or transfers right now” or “part-time is the only thing you qualify for.”
it’s left a lot of us, myself included, feeling like we’re spinning our wheels in the mud. i’ve talked with my direct management, operation coordinators, and head supervisors about this frustration, as well as my own personal needs, but those conversations end up going nowhere.
i really like the job. it’s outside, i’m not responsible for any numbers or paperwork, the team i’m with is 95% amazing and it’s pretty easy to avoid interpersonal drama. i’ve always been a bit of a recluse at work, and i’m in the middle-age bracket for everyone that works there; lots of teens-early 20s, myself and a couple late 20s-early 30s, and then a good chunk of retirees who have held onto the full-time spots for longer than any of us have worked there. i keep my head down, show up, yell and scream and dance with our guests to get them excited for their vacation days, and go home feeling pretty decent about the work i do.
because of this lack of action, i’ve begun joking about job hunting and sending out applications without really thinking about them. lo-and-behold, a debt collection place hit me up and is offering 40hrs a week for phone sales (B2B assumption of outstanding debt), immediate insurance benefits, plus a $3/hr raise over what i’m making currently AND commission pay based on monthly closing metrics.
i don’t WANT to change jobs, though. i’m really enjoying the theme park shit, and it’s been a wonderful outlet to heal from some nasty trauma an ex put me through.
i dunno. i realize that this is a point in my life where i need to start taking some shit seriously and actually focus up on what needs to happen in order to accomplish my longterm goals. i just wish those goals could be achieved at a place where i’m having as much fun as one can at a job, versus selling my soul as a glorified debt collector in a cubicle knowing that i’ll be consistently hitting the marks i need to in order to be, like, an actual adult.
shit’s just up in the air right now and i don’t know what to do with myself. thanks for reading.