I just need to vent, so I apologize if this is long.
I'm devastated. I have worked so hard to turn my life around and have come so god damn far. I've worked shit jobs my whole life – like truly shit jobs; I had no self worth.
During the Pandemic I took a very long, hard, and uncomfortable look at myself to made some changes. I got a job in a skilled trade – from there I moved to high tech. I didn't get the support I needed and it was my first while collar job (without a college degree) and I was let go before Christmas on the same day I got a lease to city I've been trying to move to for a decade. It broke me and if I'm being honest, I spun out. I eventually got some traction and landed a new job; High tech SaaS.
The technology really resonated with me, I had linear growth my entire time, I was one of the top performers, and I genuinely liked the conversations I was having with people from various industries. I learned a LOT. I had a fantastic Director. It was an entry level position at a not entry level job, and I was finally starting to make some money.
Today I got a meeting invite and was part of the 12% of the company being laid off.
I'm devastated. I really liked my director, product, industry, coworkers, etc. I feel so lost right now.