It was a dream job. They were going to pay for professional development, additional courses that would help me grow into the position, but just two years later the company is going under.
The thought of having to look for something new, again, is crushing. There's no other companies in my field anywhere in my current county. Every other job I look at is a major pay cut.
I was struggling to get by even in that job, I can't afford to take a pay cut. If I want to keep working in my qualified field I have to move, but I don't have the money to move.
Honestly I would keep doing the job unpaid if I was able to survive without the income, and that's fucked. I loved it that much. If I didn't have to worry about how tf I was going to survive, I'd be doing that job anyway, but here we are and I can't choose to work for free over paying rent and feeding myself.