To preface, I have severe social anxiety and graduated in 2021 with a BFA. Since my graduation, I have lost every single damn job I've ever landed within a year. I've pushed my pride and dreams so far down into the ground that I don't think they even exist anymore. I've worked such stupid off-jobs; while having a BFA!!! I even got licensed in health insurance on my own time to try and get work, for crying out loud!!!
This most recent position I was in really crushed me. I was like, okay, I finally have a work-from-home contract job, I can control my own hours, work at my own pace, and be happy! Sure, it was just a call center job but I was SO HAPPY that I finally landed something that allowed me to WFH because my mental disabilities do not qualify as a disability in the state I live in. After a month, I'm so happy and grateful for this job, they send me kudos every week on how well I'm doing, I love my coworkers, and I'm literally one of their top performers. Yesterday, I get an email out of nowhere saying my contract has been canceled because my conversion rate wasn't meeting their standards.
HUH??? What “conversion rate”??? I had NO IDEA there was a conversion rate! Sobbed my ass off yesterday, my dreams and hopes ONCE AGAIN being crushed as I just BARELY started to believe that I FINALLY had income to plan my future. NOPE. I truly feel like I will NEVER trust ANY employer EVER AGAIN. I'm SICK of being fired, laid off, contract cancelled, without ANY NOTICE. EVER. THEY NEVER TELL ME!!!
So incredibly mad, sad, depressed, stressed, humiliated, angry, just everything about this. Needed to vent, god.