I need to have a little rant – not looking for any solutions really but just feeling really abysmal about a work situation and need some solidarity! I started in a new company less than six months ago… I’ve a good bit of experience under my belt, and at a mid-senior level.
I came in with a lot of excitement and enthusiasm for the role, but from week 2 onwards it’s been just shy of terrible – zero training, over loaded with responsibilities and left with minimal (and tbh often no) support from leadership. That said there are a lot of cooks in the kitchen, so I can find myself landed with priorities from one person only to have my actual boss come along and be like wth nope… Ive constantly put my hand up for support only and arranged 1:1s, catch ups etc. that go unattended. I’ve been flying by the seat of my pants and doing the best i can with the information made available to me but burnt out during the summer and wound up signed off from work with stress leave.(Not for a major length of time because I couldn’t afford to not work as sick pay is not a thing here.)
Since I’ve come back I’ve become increasingly aware of questions around my capabilities and that my work is under scrutiny – all of which has left me riddled with anxiety – and feeling very much a damned if I do and damned if i dont kind of vibe.
I’ve worked abroad for years and never experienced anything like this. Why tf hire someone to treat them this way? I feel like a fall guy.