Hi everyone,
I am writing here as I am in a kind of a conundrum. I work in corporate and in the last performance talk with my boss I was told that if I want to advance in my career, I need to choose between leadership or specialist path. I honestly did not know what to answer, even though everyone talks about it like it's the most obvious thing to know. I tried to interrogate myself so many times in the past, but I could never come up with an answer. Furthermore, every time I think about that I get depressed because I realise that I actually don't give a sh*t (and because I am naturally prone to depression). To me it's just work and I am not going to enjoy it either way. I am just interested in the earnings. At some point I was even asked what motivates me and my mind blanked out completely. I almost bursted into tears because I should know what I want from my job, but the only thing that comes to my mind is “retire early”.
Any suggestion? What's the better of the two evil?