i'm just posting to see if anybody can relate, i'm sure everyone can in some capacity but it feels like nothing has meaning, we all clock in, clock out while the whole world is heading towards destruction. we're barely keeping our heads above water because if we don't work, we starve, but nothing even pays well enough for us to genuinely live, not just survive.
currently, i'm feeling sick, i'm typing this while in the basement office at work under the guise of attending my online classes but in reality i'm just rewatching the zoom recordings of my math class and debating on letting my manager know i'm not feeling well. does anybody else feel guilty for being sick and needing to leave? i can't even look people in the eye while admitting i'm not feeling well and need to go home.
i feel so disillusioned with my work as well, i make $23 CAD btw, this isn't significant pay either, especially for the place i live, and i was initially under the impression that i would be earning $24 an hour if i took on coordination for a specialist. come to find out, since i'm now technically part-time due to having to attend classes, they're not bumping my pay to $24 an hour, especially since they're letting me keep my benefits. i'm just annoyed because before they even hired me, they knew i was starting classes in September.
i want to leave early today cause i'm not feeling well but with two coworkers already out, i doubt my manager is going to be very happy, i'm not the only one terrified of letting bosses down right? maybe its because im inherently intimidated by my bosses as i feel this way no matter how shitty of a human being they are.
i am definitely going to be applying to different jobs, but i just wanted to get this off my chest.