I don’t know how to start. I lost a much needed job after I said no to my boss. I dont have an evidence since it happened on a night drink out. He made my life at the office miserable afterwards and I tried reporting it to our HR but I didnt have any evidence. And to my surprise, HR did nothing and believed him over me.
Had a coworker who experienced the same thing but she refused to come forward. This happened to 3 months ago and I havent been able to find a job since then.
For the past couple of months, Im contemplating whether I should’ve just said yes. Maybe I still have my job and my daughter wouldn’t suffer along with me. But as an SA victim, I couldn’t do it. It brought up a lot of trauma and has been struggling ever since.
Our water was cut off last week and my daughter kept asking me when our water would be back up. Im lucky to have a neighbor who are kind and let me fill our buckets whenever they’re home but to say that Im not struggling is a lie.
I’m doing everything that I could. Going to food banks but sometimes, they can’t accommodate everyone. Doing odd jobs to keep a roof over our head but for the past couple of months I feel like Im a failure.
Went to the food bank yesterday but they are closed so I can’t eat knowing that my kid wouldn’t have food if I share what is left that we have. Supposed to have a job interview last Tuesday but I couldnt afford bus tickets. Eaten dog food yesterday coz Im lucky that we have an animal shelter nearby that I can rely on. It was disgusting to say the least but it was better than having an empty stomach and pretending in front of my kid that Im full whenever she asks why Im not eating.
Every single day, I wish that my former boss gets what he deserves coz I know that he’d do it again. I dont know what else to do, our lights will be disconnected too soon and Im doing everything that Im supposed to do but it is never enough. About to run out of food so it’s making me severely anxious. I can’t apply for jobs since I cant afford bus fares. I feel like giving up but Im trying to be tough for my kid and our dog.