So a bit of background:
I'm currently working in Massachusetts after being a 7th grade social studies teacher in Georgia and an 8th grade science teacher in North Carolina. I enjoyed both jobs, but I prefer to teach social studies.
I had a stroke back in 2019 that really affected me irreparably, I feel. I'm now married and have a house in Rhode Island. My first full time teaching job was last year at a high school where I was teaching 9th grade biology and civics. Ever since the stroke I feel like I can't concentrate as well as I used to and I ended up not having my contract renewed. I now teach middle school science, making 57k. While I'm grateful I have a job that allows me to have some spending money as well as pay my mortgage, I'm increasingly losing my drive with this job. The curriculum we're using is not something we can deviate from, and both the kids and I don't like it. I'm constantly tired because these kids are a handful and I constantly need to shout at them to sit down. The weekends don't even feel like real rest periods. I'm missing deadlines and I don't think my evaluators think I'm doing a good job. I want to find another job, but I need my pay to stay the same.
I know these are the same struggles everyone is having, but I just don't want to work. I want to stay home and help my wife fix up the house and all that. I'm tired of being humiliated every day and I'm tired of being yelled at. This isn't what I wanted to do. I used to be a good teacher but now I feel I'm not making an impact on anybody and it's making me hate my life. I'm constantly tired and don't want to exert any mental energy. I was wondering if anybody had any advice they could share with me. What else could I do that makes roughly the same amount of money? I want to keep teaching but I'm worried I won't be able to find anything after my last couple jobs have been unsuccessful.