I've been working for this company for more than five years now. In that time, I've now seen three different rounds of layoffs. I'm lucky to have gotten through them, but what about the fourth round, because there are always more coming. I know I am in the next round, though. The only C-Level person in my company I still have any bit of respect for told me about the layoffs affecting my team (after the fact) but she also mentioned that my position can only be promised up to the end of the year but cant promise anything moving into the new year. So thats just so much fun.
Where does this shit end? Am I destined to go to another company that has no job security and work until I'm no longer essential then get let go for “fiscal reasons”? How the hell can anyone be productive in this economy with so much instability? What happened to company loyalty working both ways? I finally got to a point in my life where I am financially stable and now I know that stability is disappearing at some point next year. The even better part is that my job is so god damn niche that I cannot find another company needing my skill set. They were specific to the company I am currently at which I thought valued my job but a nice smack in the face told me they dont.
I used to have a department with 6 people under me. Now its literally only myself. I've had several employee recognitions and have gotten employee of the month a few times. I've always been highly productive and met all deadlines on challenging projects. I dont know why I was so loyal to this company and why I have any loyalty left.
What am I going to tell my wife? We just talked about how we're ready to get pregnant. We were actually starting to look for a house. Now I need to either reskill or completely change industries again and put all of our life on hold. At 36, I dont even know where to start. I have a few months, and I sincerely appreciate the heads up from my boss, but god damnit am I exhausted. I'm already burnt out and I need to restart. How? I dont really know what my goal is here, I guess its just a rant by a depressed guy. This just isnt sustainable.