My job is giving my panic attacks. Is this normal?
I’m sorry if this post seems jumbled or confusing, it’s currently midnight and I’m laying awake stressing out about going to work tomorrow.
For context, I’m a 22 year old paralegal. I work at an auto accident law firm, and I’ve been there for almost two years now. For the most part, I believe I have done well. There are mistakes I have made, but I don’t believe they are huge/mistakes that everyone had made at some point.
However, when I made these mistakes my boss would call me into his office and yell at me. (Genuinely yell, waving his hands and being so animated to the point it was scary.) since this started, every time he calls his name my heart races because I’m terrified that I’ve done something else wrong. I spend most my days with my office door shut looking over every detail possible so I can make sure a mistake doesn’t happen.
I lay awake at night going over cases in my head, and panicking because I’m not sure if I’ve missed something. I can’t sleep, and honestly don’t want to because it means I have to wake up and go to work the next day. I don’t know how people do this. I can’t quit because I need the money but my health is absolutely declining.