Ugh I have went to therapy, I take my medication and been on them for a year. I went back to college, graduated and I still hate my work. Long story short, I was in a position years and years ago where my looks were very important to the job. Fast forward to now, that has just stayed with me. My looks are very important to me, even had some surgeries to look more vibrant. All my supervisors have been old old white men. Who get angry when I don’t laugh at their jokes and then make life hard for me at work. The other supervisors are gay men and they try and be a mean girl to me as if they are projecting their insecurities on me. I am a very great worker. I just want a job where I go to work and work and not get punished because I don’t want to rub the old boomer ego and not get punished because I reject being in the gay and mean girl cliques at work. We are adults ‼️ I don’t mix work with my personal life.