That is if the trains are carrying tonnes of horseshit.
I work in a kitchen in a castle in Ireland. I immigrated here from the US to be with my love because of visa issues that prohibit him from coming back to America until were married. I desperately took a job as this place and a month into work I knew it was a bad place to work…unfortunately I am locked in by contract and if I quit I can't work in the country for five years…so I put up with it for the past 9 months. Shit is hitting the industrial fan now.
To set the scene, this is a corporate, expendable-employee, short-staffed, “we must hold THE standard,” sort of place. I applied as a senior chef de partie and its been an exhausting hell. In my first 2 months eight people had quit the pastry kitchen. Now a few months later, I've seen maybe 7 more people leave. We're incredibly short staffed and everyone's picking up the extra work and we're all paid shit in the first place. We are running a six hour lunch service (which overlaps with dinner service) out of a kitchen that also runs two other restaurants on the property so space and equiptment is nearly nonexistent.
I am so stressed that I've lost hair, I can't sleep, and I've even had anxiety attacks and thoughts of self harming again. The management and some employees just shit all over you all day even though they make the same mistakes that some of us others make. I've tried my hardest but I'm so distraught that my relationship was suffering and I was suffering. It got so bad that i legitimatly thought of “accidentally” falling off my bicycle and “accidentally” breaking my arm.
I finally went to HR and explained my situation, they told me if my mental health is struggling that I will need to speak with a doctor. So I did. The doctor immediately gave me 4 weeks of mental wellness holiday AND she threw some shade at my work place.
I have been on holiday for 2.5 weeks at this point and I feel amazing. My brain is clear and I feel good. The place has gotten worse since i left too, even though i was constantly blamed for these issues now occouring. My subordinate has been telling me all of the juicy gossip since I took leave and I feel like I'm being caught up on a reality show…he showed me multiple pictures of rotting food AND how the sous is rushing dishes out of the kitchen which aren't ready AT ALL, AND (THIS is the worst part) one of the employees funking projectile vomited all of the kitchen and THEY FUCKING CARRIED ON WITH SERVICE!!! I cannot comprehend how this place survives. I despise working here and I am trapped here where my mental health is deteriorating by the minute. It's an absolute fucking mess and I am ashamed of being a part of the team, and I am over my boiling point.
I just really needed to rant. Thank you for your time.
TLDR: work place that I can't leave has destroyed my mental health, is badly managed and is disgusting.