I am so tired, everything has been going so bad for so long… I am 45 y.o. and I want and need to work, and I have +20 years of experience in my field, but it is becoming more and more challenging to just get some feedback from the 10s or 100s of applications I make. Left my last job due to pretty serious burnout, thinking hey, I deserve better. But… It has been a terrible year, one frustration after the other, endless processes with 5, 6, 7 rounds, ghosting, no replies… I feel like I have no value, that I already lost the last train and I am just now descending into the end. Sometimes I just think all this is a nightmare and I will wake up to a more normal life. I just want to give up, I cant take more hits, over and over again. This is it? This is all? The worst time of my life, I just wanted to do my part, I have so much to give, but now I only want to wake up and not feel so deeply miserable.