I was always kinda depressed/ suicidal, but I got a new job for the last 6 months and I never thought I would get this close to actually comitting suicide, but I might actually do it, which I thought wouldnt ever happen.
It just gets worse and worse by the day. I, cant quit, cause I have no money, finding no other job.
I talked to an actual psychiatrist after finally having an appointment and she told she cant do anything, just cause Im too lazy to work and its just a motivation issue and then showed me the door, she literally she wouldnt do anything AT ALL, nothing, so Im just trapped and my only option to escape is suicide.
I dont why Iam posting here, there is just nothing else left where I could get help.
I just cant do this anymore, called so many other psychiatrists, but earliest appointment is in November and I cant continue like this, never thought I would actually end myself. But here Iam.