I'm starting a new job tomorrow and I can't sleep at all.. I left my last full time job in order to try working for myself, which I enjoyed and was good for awhile, but ive been unable to make enough money ongoing to keep up with high rents and expenses..
I'm already down to about 4 hours of sleep left tonight.. but I'm tossing and turning in bed full of dread and anxiety about having to go back into office all day long again.. I like working on projects but I despise having my time completely controlled..
I feel like I'm losing my mind and I'm desperate to escape this situation, but I have a family now too so dont know what I can even do anymore..
I'm so close to just emailing the company and apologizing and telling them I can't take the position..
Can anyone snap me out of this?
If I don't take this job I don't know what I will do and me and my family will end up on the streets in a few months time..
But I'm so stressed out about working as an office employee and commuting again I'm at the point that I can't handle it anymore despite the consequences..