Want to quit after first month – 32 early career, depressed
I moved to China a month ago to start a new role at a reputable financial institution. It aligned with my career goals and I got a pretty good salary bump too.
But boy oh boy – I never imagined this would be a living nightmare. I have a boss who can’t stop shouting, screaming, mocking at everyone and every little thing. He never listens to anyone. Asks for suggestions, then says drop it because he doesn't want to hear it. Makes me feel uncomfortable with all his random comments. This one time he made a comment about how a new person who’s joining soon will get up to speed quicker than me. I find him pretty dumb frankly speaking. He has no clarity in his ideas, thoughts, and planning so when you ask him something, he gets super defensive and outraged.
This trickles down to the entire team I suppose. Everyone is either stressed, upset, or frustrated at someone or something. No respect, no boundaries. One senior, Chinese btw came in to my office getting super mad for editing a deck that the boss had asked me to. All I did was correct grammatical errors and typos. I don’t get why she came at me the way she did. Told me she wanted someone else to take over NOT me.
So basically this place is a circus! Toxic as hell. No respect. No acknowledgements. People say things left and right and get surprised when I confront them. Having worked for government contractors in the US in my short career, I have never seen anything like this before.
I feel depressed and have lost sense of my self worth. I want to quit!! But I don’t have resources to go back to the US. Haven’t received my first paycheck yet. I can't believe I left everything behind to come to this and I don't know what to do next.
Any advice would be very helpful. Thank you for reading this