Antiwork

I have 2 scheduled vac. days and in 5 minutes my shift begins. Somehow I feel guilty for not being at work. I don't feel guilty ever for not seeing my family. I hate how working has done this to my brain.

How do I tell my job I just got that I can only work nights ( what I applied for 3-11) they are wanting me to train and work some day shift but I need a second job so I can pay the bills I’ve only been here for a week. I start my day job next week too. How do I tell them this?

Someone said that in a comment and to be honest, I am already there. (Ramble incoming, apologies) Why would I WANT to live if I have to work myself to the bone just so I have the CHANCE at sleeping somewhere decent? Or so I can have access to clean water (unclean water in lots of places in the US too)? Or food that isn't heavily processed and packed full of harmful additives? I literally just want to LIVE. I don't need super fancy extra shit. I literally just want to be able to live. And I think I should be able to do that without giving my life away to some company whose executives get to get paid 100x more than I ever will for (often) 100x less work and stress. I have horrible anxiety and depression. It is already very difficult for me to fucking live even when…