I don't know if this is the right subreddit for this, but oh well. At least take this as a cautionary tale about life and why you should do what you want to do, granted it support you financially and really makes you happy.
I hate my career. This mostly due to the manipulative, narcissistic behavior from my parents (mostly my father) and my dumbass (I f-ed up). I am not going to give away my identity nor the identity of where I work. To keep it simple: I chose funeral service because my father convinced me it was right for me. Before I learned of his narcissist tactics, I believed him. My fault, I know. It's just that HE wanted me to be HIM or what he wished he was, and I was convinced at the time that what he was doing to me was normal. Here's the thing: I really wanted to help grieving families. I was going to be a PSYCOLOGIST! …and an author…I really wanted to be an author, but I knew that wouldn't keep me financially stable, so I turned to my next interest. That's what I wanted to be: a psycologist! But, my father convinced me that I wasn't good enough for it. I have since grown and I wish I saw the signs earler. Anyway, now I have been here for a long time and I am in my last year of college for this career…and I absolutely hate this job. It is very stressful, demanding, and I often feel like the weak link no matter how hard I try. My college courses? Absolute shit! They dont know wtf they are doing. Their f-ups are ruining my perfect GPA and they don't give a shit. I can't drop out because I am so far in, and I want to get away from my emotionally and mentally abusive family. I am more depressed than ever and it made my anxiety worse. I am beyond stressed and it was been so long since I have felt happy about any sort of work. Now, I hate working.
Damn, I thought I could handle funeral service because I really wanted to help families. I wish I was given more time to think about my choices. Instead, I just live in a toxic family and I f-ed up my life early. If you are thinking of funeral service, I commend you, because I can't handle it. I appreciate all funeral directors now. My advice to you is REALLY THINK ABOUT IT AND DON'T LET ANYONE TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT! ONLY YOU KNOW WHAT YOU WANT! I can't stress this enough. OK, bye.