During my life I've held several summer jobs but focused the majority of my time on studies and friends. After finishing my Bachelors degree in tourism management. I had a full time position in a logistics sector which was like 90% remote but very stressful (as the industry can be), especially because it was during the pandemic. I worked there for a year and a half, freelanced on the side but after leaving my full time job a major depressive episode started which I took control off only barely 6 months later at the start of this year. During these times I tried to find a good paying job and stumbled upon another logistics position, so I went there, but my social anxiety was so high that I was forced to leave during the probation period. That made it clear that logistics as a career are out of the question so during August I've found a full time position in a manufacturing company. It's desk work but really responsible one and after 2 weeks I feel like I'm just not the right person for the job. It doesn't help that HR tricked me during my job interview, because I wouldn't apply if I knew the real truth. The company is in a desperate need of workers, so I feel they think the lies could seem justifiable for them at least. Slowly but surely the social anxiety is creeping in, I'm starting to feel a lot worse and to be honest I can't do anything during my off time after work. I feel too burned out and it's important for me to feel content in my life… Does it mean that I can't work any stressful office job? Should I work a relatively easy job for a while? I feel like garbage because I really want to work and use the skills I have but for some reason well paying jobs I can actually land are so stressful that I just cry from stress after work almost every single day. And I can feel my health is deteriorating. Does anyone feel relatable to this situation? Maybe someone managed to escape this cycle successfully and are working on something they enjoy? I even started MBA studies on a scholarship to get more knowledge and hopefully find a dream job in the future. I'm pretty good with academic stuff however holding a job and being a social butterfly for some reason is really hard.