I (23F), recently graduated, have Been At my 9-5 job for about 6-7 months now and recently have been feeling very overwhelmed.
for context, I work in marketing and coordinate conferences and events for our company. We usually have around 2-3 conferences a month, going up to 10-15 in a month.when I first started, I was sort of thrown into the fire and had to figure out stuff on my own, I have learned the ropes of the job very quickly and as such I’ve been given more and more responsibility.
recently, we had to coordinate for a massive conference and I have been on the grind trying to deliver everything within the deadlines. Because of this, some of the smaller items (but still very important) have slipped through the cracks and I have had a hard time managing them. This is also stressing me Out and makes me feel like they’re going to fire me for this.
i am the only person in my company who can do this job fully besides maybe my manager. However my manager is often very busy and during our 1-1 will usually give me more work to get done.
on top of this, one of my team members got fired and we are missing Support in one of our biggest divisions. This has been tough because I tend to rely on the team for other divisions but have no one in this particular one. everyone on my team has a lot of work to do and I know I’m not the only one feeling the massive workload. I cant really ask for help on my workload because no one else can really do it. our department used to have around 40 people but most of them got laid off and now only 10 people are remaining causing a ridiculous amount of work. I know a few others on the team who are thinking of leaving as well.
the job also requires me to be “on call” almost all the time in case anything goes wrong at any of the conferences. I am usually the first person people ask for troubleshooting problem. my Manager and team expects me to be able to assist them at any time if a problem arises. This has created a really bad work life balance for me and is making me incredibly stressed. I’ve been having stress dreams for the last week or so because of the job And I’ve been up at 1 in the morning stressing about work stuff.
I’m not sure how much longer I can keep doing this and wondering if I should quit? I don’t want to look like a job hopper. i Do have work experience at an office where I was working part time during school for almost 2 years. Does that count for anything? i want to tell my manager im overwhelmed as well but don’t know how to do so without seeming like I can’t do what’s required of me, I also don’t know how she can help, because as I mentioned, no one besides my manager can do the job And shes so busy I don’t think she can Take more tasks on.
tldr: job is giving me stress dreams, I’m overworked, making mistakes, scared of being fired and, losing my mental health. Should I quit?