Seriously, I know we all have to work and make money to survive. I get it, it’s life. Most people don’t like it. But it’s just too much.
I feel like a lot of people don’t love working, but they push through, get home, and enjoy the rest of their day. I’m a student and I also work 28 hours a week. Not bad. I only work a full day on Monday. School isn’t too terrible. I don’t have it as bad as others.
But still, the only time I don’t feel like I have a massive weight on my shoulders is if it’s the weekend or if I’m off from work for a week (which never happens because I’m part time so I don’t get PTO). I love having my time to wake up, have a cup of coffee, enjoy the weather, get some sunshine, have peace and quiet, spend time with people I want to.
I’m surrounded by coworkers that gossip about everyone and patient’s that always have to scream at me about something that I can’t control. I just can’t stand having to do things I don’t want to do, dealing with people I don’t want to deal with.
I want to spend time with my mom, fiancé, friends, people that make me feel good. I always come home from work feeling like I just fought in a war.
I don’t know, I’m just tired of it and I want to get better. I want to be positive, I want to enjoy life (even the few hours before or after work). But I’m constantly on edge before and during work and I just don’t know how this is going to be the rest of my life.
I’m hoping after school it’ll be slightly better if it’s a job I genuinely enjoy doing. But, who knows lol.