Well, I’ve always been a top performer. Last year I killed myself following a layoff and restructuring to move things forward. Leading the process and figuring out nuances.
When it came time for performance reviews I was not promoted. I was recognized as top talent but given a shitty raise and very little extra bonus.
Then, comes another layoff and restructuring… I had been escalating the workload not being feasible with Others on PTO and loss of additional employees..management has shrugged me off for weeks and now that deadlines are around the corner, shit is hitting the fan. I asked again what priority was bc getting all completed was not feasible.. I got “no one thing is more important and it all needs to be done.”
I cried all day. I’m mentally and physically exhausted. The lack of support caused me to completely shut down and do nothing at all. I guess my boss doesn’t realize that I am my own worst critic and will put insane pressure on myself to execute. I didn’t need that response from them.
I can’t even think of trying to do this again tomorrow. No one did their part of this work correctly (or at all) and now I am being left with all the blame. I have been in management in the past and I never committed my team to things they couldn’t handle. I advocated for them and I am so disappointed in all of this.
Just lay me off and put me out of my misery.
Sincerely,
Hope I don’t just quit tomorrow bc then I will be worried about income instead.