I was just diagnosed with stage 3 avascular necrosis in my left femoral head. I’m going to need a total hip replacement at 36 years old.
It’s gonna max out my insurance and out of pocket expenses. I’m gonna be out of work on medical leave for a while, which will only cover 40% of my pay. Then for the next 6-8 months I’m going to be very limited in my mobility, plus years of physical therapy.
Then I realized that now I’m completely dependent on my job to keep my insurance and medical leave. These motherfucking millionaires own me. I’m officially a slave. I CANT leave. My worst nightmare has happened, just like that.
I’m a healthy person, I take care of myself, but doc said there’s nothing i could’ve done. It’s idiopathic (no known cause).
But now I’m considering quitting. I don’t need this stress anymore. Walking on eggshells because I’m afraid of being hundreds of thousands of dollars in debt when they decide to fire me is fucking bullshit. Fuck them.
I think it’s better to be homeless. I really do. Yeah, my leg will be rotting away, but at least I’m not owned by insurance companies or my piece of shit CEO’s.
I would rather lose my ability to walk ever again then let these cuntbags exploit me for the rest of my goddamn life. First I was laid off 3 times in a row over these last 4 years since Covid after BUSTING MY GODDAMN ASS FOR NOTHING, now this happens. I’m done.
Fuck this society, fuck capitalism and fuck the rich, all of them.
Edit: I keep getting docs that tell me I’m too young for a hip replacement and I just need steroid injections and walk on crutches all day. So what? I’m just gonna be a young man in crutches all the time? So that’s better?
Seriously, I can’t take this shit anymore. All this red tape between this and my job. I have to quit. It’s the principle. They won’t own me, they never will. I refuse to go through all this bullshit and stress because they have the power to dangle the carrot of health insurance over my head.
Homelessness is the right choice for me. I’m done. I’m not participating in capitalism anymore.
I’ve been wanting to kill myself for a long time before this, nearly a decade actually, and hopefully the pain gets so bad and the lack of money will finally push me to do it. I have no more energy left. I gave it a shot but I kept getting tossed to the curb, and now this happens. Not everyone has a happy ending I guess.
Thank you all for the kind words and helpful advice. I’m sure all these things listed below will help out others. See you on the other side maybe 🤷️