Been bouncing around between retail and fast food work for my whole work life and I'm just over it. My first job I worked for a local pizza shop for a couple years. I'd still be there tbh but it unfortunately went out of business last year. Since then, I've worked 3 separate jobs, all of which have been more or less the same experience. Start off strong, feeling good, feeling like I might have actually found something good for myself, management starts taking advantage (giving me more shit to do, higher expectations, worse hours etc…), taking it on trying to be a good “team player”, get burnt out, work declines, management gets upset I'm not upholding the same quality as I started, I get pissed, I quit.
It takes a lot for me to convince myself I'm not the problem. Hell, most of these jobs have people who've worked there since before I was born. I can't ever tell if it's just me being lazy or what it is. I just can't keep dragging myself to work every day, forcing myself to be someone I'm not. It's just exhausting, like I'm living a constant lie anytime I'm at work. I'm a STRONG introvert and have bad social anxiety but Im forced to smile and deal with it cuz I gotta get paid somehow. I keep telling myself it's just a temporary solution and once I finish school it'll be better but that seems like such an unattainable goal when I'm literally dreading the next time I have to go to work. And it doesn't make it easier that it's the holiday season coming up so it's probably only going to get worse. I just don't know how much more I have in the tank.