I hate talking about this because it seems like nobody relates, or passes me off as too young and ungrateful and ignorant, aa I agree, I am inexperienced in almost every job, but that isn't to say I'm “bad” at those I have been in and tried.
I'm 19, and I am currently working with Sam's Club. I jave worked several fast food jobs, doordash, and worked at two warehouse jobs, both sucked as management was terrible morally and conditionally. I agree, I am still young and have a lot in my life to do, however, I don't want to spend my early adulthood working and rarely having time to leisure.
I like Sam's Club, coworkers are amazing and managers are understanding and better compared to anywhere else, yet, at the same time, I just want to have enough money to afford getting my necessities and spending time for leisure, family, and friends.
I do plan on going to college, however, I don't know how much time I'll have free. Once I turned 16 I got a job, fast food, and I hated it. I was always working and at school, then I got out of school and got my first warehouse job and it was awful. I worked 40 hoirs every week, and only had 2 days off, amd I was usually exhausted by that time, or had to use most of the money to pay for my car and insurance. Everything else went to food, and leisure, however, I did start saving, at the expense of doing what I loved, including hobbies and going out with friends. I have the same issue now. I want to move out, but the rent in Texas is raising so fast, so high. Central and North Central Texas is booming as more industry spans across cities and creating more jobs, at the expense of raising rent and living standards. Even in Eastern Texas, where we don't have anything but the oil field industry, agriculture if lucky, and of course the regular part time jobs and other blue collar work. Even then, you either have a high wage with terrible work environment, or amazing work environment with poor pay.
How do I enjoy anything? I know the most common advice is to find some distraction, do something nice after work, but the dread still sits. I don't want to work half of my life, I am not lazy, I can and will work for what I need, but how do I make it livable and just enjoyable as an entirety? How will I know if by the time I start college and get out it'll work out and things will change, and even if they do, what about everyone else? Sure I have a job I love but sometimes all I'd like is peace and to spend more time with those around me than coworkers. Even if by gods miracle I find a job that gives me wealth, fulfills my necessities, do I just ignore everyone behind me, whether or not they are graced the same outcome or not?
Apologies if it doesn't make sense, it's hard to explain to anyone how it feels and I'm always regarded as too young, but that's kinda the point. I'm told I'm still young but have to focus on so much. It's overwhelming.