My life is just completely screwed. I have never been a very job competent person my entire life. So when I found a job I could stand, I held on to it, as it took a lifetime to find. But I also don’t like it, I just do it because I have no choice. I was born and raised in a city that has become ridiculously unaffordable. My apartment is very expensive, but is now considered a good deal because things just keep getting worse.
Now you might say then just move. But my friends, family and everything I’ve ever known is here, and, my finances got out of control last year and I was forced to file for bankruptcy. So now, finding a cheaper place to live is not an option. Because anywhere I go, including awful basement suites, will do a credit score check and deny me instantly. If I move to another city that’s cheaper, my job could end up even worse and again anyone doing a background check won’t rent me anything.
But if stay I have no money. I can barely afford food. And what girl would ever wanna be a part of my life like this, so dating is also out of the question. Doesn’t matter if I am good person or even attractive. Without money and a good life I don’t count.
If I leave to anther city things could get far worse, as I said it took years to find a job I could stand, and that could stand me. It may never happen again, I am that incompetent. Plus it brings me to tears to leave everything/body I’ve known behind to be all alone starting from scratch. I am truly damned if I do and damned if I don’t. I don’t know what to do.