I've been unemployed for half a year now, and I have no motivation to apply for a new job. I have enough savings to last me the next 4 years, but everyday I feel guilt for taking time off to take care of my mental health. I can't stress enough how much they've fucked me up mentally with the constant gaslighting, blame shifting, and outright verbal abuse. I've lost my confidence and positivity. I honestly don't know how I can go on like this.
At this point I don't know what to do. I feel like the more time I take off, the less likely I'll be able to find a job. I'm only 30 and I feel like my life has ended. Even when I find the motivation to apply, I'm constantly reminded that I'll just be returning to the same toxic environment that will eventually worsen my mental health even further.