A few days ago at work i(17f) was doing dishes and all of a sudden my brain just started playing a repressed memory related to the sexual abuse I experienced in my childhood. I’ve never had a flashback this intense before and I was crying heavily. I quickly walked into the cooler to hopefully be unnoticed for a few minutes while I tried to regain my composure. We were not busy at all so it’s not like everyone else had to do more work while I was in there but the store manager walked in and saw me and demanded I get back to work. I tried explaining that I just needed a minute or 2 and she demanded to know exactly why I cried and I just said that some bad memories were resurfacing and she said if I wasn’t willing to give specifics then for all she knew I was just lying and that I could either return to work or be written up.
Because I’m a spineless coward I walked back to the sink in full view of everyone and they bombarded me asking if I was ok which just made everything worse. I’d love to change jobs but it’s not an option atm