This is just a vent. I'm so angry/irritated beyond words. I was told for MONTHS. from July onward that my whole department would get a bonus at Christmas. Even the director of our department promised it. Anywhere between $500 to $1500, depending on performance reviews which had to be submitted by December 1st. I went above and beyond and was awarded an “exceptional” yearly performance review and my supervisor told me that I would definitely get a bonus. Couldn't tell me the amount but I was just happy to get anything at all.
So I didn't sign up for any of the Christmas lists. Didn't do toys for tots like I've done in the past. Because I was told multiple times that I'd get a bonus. I thought OH SHIT. I'll actually be able to get my child something for Christmas. I might be able to pay off my past due electric bill. Maybe get myself some new work pants that aren't being held together by a prayer and sheer will. Maybe even get myself a new pair of shoes because the soles are coming unglued on my work shoes again. There's so much stuff we need/I could have afforded with this bonus and it just feels like the wind has been knocked out from under me
And today, 10 days before we were scheduled to get it, my supervisor informed the whole department that we weren't getting it. But we can expect a 2% pay raise “sometime in January”. Great I'll go from making barely above minimum wage to what, an extra 25 cents above barely making above minimum wage.
I am just so beat. So tired. I knew it was dumb to hope for this bonus or put all of my eggs in this basket but ugh. Now I have to scramble to see what lists or charity programs we can be put on 20 days before Christmas…which doesn't bode well to me. Guess it's time to try to door dash for extra money and try for babysitting gigs. Like I am so disappointed and just beat down. I know I'm not the only one in my department who was waiting/counting on that bonus on the 15th but I am the only one with a small child so it just feels like an extra punch to the gut. 🫠