I think I'm just looking for someone who feels the same or has been in a similar position.
I am a 26y/F and I have been recently diagnosed with PCOS. I have a slew of mental health issues (probably some that stem from the hormonal imbalances) that haven't been officially diagnosed (definitely severe anxiety, likely OCD and ADHD, but tbh the symptoms get a little murky the further you go so could be others). I'm somewhere between self-loating and self-victimization. I can't hold a job. Everywhere I work my mental health gets in the way and I end up quitting because I am freaking the fuck out (one day I'm fine – optimistic even! The next, I actually can't work because I'm sobbing). Then I can't consistently see a Dr because I have no health insurance. What the fuck is wrong with me???
It's so hard to get a job now, I can't keep doing this. I don't know who to ask for help because I have no money to get help. I don't WANT to work but I also don't want to be poor and suffering for the rest of my life.
On top of that I feel like I have short term memory loss, or maybe it's just the ADHD? I can't focus on anything. I have no energy for anything. I'm trying to look for jobs right now and my brain is just suffering trying to slog through it.
Or, maybe I'm just a whiny shit and I need to put my big girl pants on. I don't even know at this point.