I’m stuck in a rut. 35 years old with no prospects for retiring in my lifetime or even owning the very basics of life like a house. The prospect of doing this bullshit where I show up every day for 8 hours and still struggle to survive while other people get to enjoy their lives is the main reason I’m depressed. Like I’m gonna die one day I don’t want work to have eaten up so much of my life. I know I need to find a better paying job to get out of this but the prospect of job searching makes me want to throw a brick through my computer screen. Like I need to beg somebody to let me do their bullshit for 8 hours a day? At least slaves didn’t have to convince anyone they were worthy of the job. Anyway I’m thinking of seeing a therapist like everybody suggests but what exactly will they be able to do when the world is such a massive piece of shit other than the and medicate the symptoms away. I’m not against medication or anything I just don’t see how boosting serotonin or fucking with my brain chemistry is gonna make me forget how messed up everything is is going to work. I’m kinda just waiting for my parents to die before taking up van life at this point. Anyway did anyone actually see improvement with therapy?