Im so frustrated. I smoke weed and im trying to find a decent blue collar job. im not even picky, im looking at anything in a decent driving distance with decent pay. Im young and genuinely a quick learner especially with hands on shit. I just want to be able to pop some headphones in and do whatever job ot may be that is required of me and make a living.
i had a fantastic job, my dads workplace needed a new guy to take over for some dude who was retiring and it was amazing. It was a weird hiring process bc my dad was talking to his boss and even tho he gave him my number, it was mostly all through my dad. So i had stopped smoking for like 3-4 weeks in prep for the job but wasnt sure exactly when an interview would be set up. Finally got it and did a drug test. Failed the drug test but miraculously still got the job. Literally was the best job ive had. And then the fucking company went bankrupt after 3 months. No more job.
I obviously stopped smoking after that (again) and now its been 6 weeks and im still not clean and im just losing my mind. Ive been having a shitty week where everything goes wrong and I just want to smoke and be able to sleep at night. Its just insane to me. Im not going to show up high (even jobs ive had that i could so do high, i have no reason to do that and i dont want to). Why can I watch half the men in these warehouses sneak bottles of alcohol in while theyre at work and even tho its pretty obvious they dont get any consequences. But i cant smoke in my free time because then i cant even get a job. Im just looking to like. grind some metal or paint some shit, its not like im trying to be a surgeon or some shit. I iust wanna make a living and be able to buy a house with my fiance in the next year or two. but i cant even apply to jobs rn bc i know i wont get them
okay edit to say that im not ignorant and i understand there are insurance things and its not even necessarily the job itself, im just mostly venting bc i dont feel like what i do in my free time should have any affect on how a job judges my work. im young and pretty unexperienced but i put my all into my work. and i think its bullshit that what i do in my unpaid freetime has anything to do with what job i can get, especially when i have talked to and know a shit ton guys that are legit drunk on the job. when they can breathalize for weed on the spot thats a different story. i just thought enough people in this sub might understand my venting
edit 2: i really didnt think this post was gonna get as many comments as it did lol. just to clarify- im not saying anyone should show up to work under any influence