Every summer I try to find myself a job, because without it I am restless and I feel guilty for not working. Yet every time I regret finding a job.
Lest time, I was working as a dishwasher in a busy restaurant for 10-12 hours a day, but my coworkers were making me do all the prep work and some of the cleaning, so I never got a minute to rest between washing the dishes and doing other, unrelated work. My boss told me I am only supposed to clean the dishes but one conversation with my coworkers and he changed his mind and told me to listen to them. Then I asked if I can get more money, because I'm doing more work – he said no. So I was still earning less than minimum wage. I lasted only two weeks, because I was constantly overworked, slept most of my time at home and when I wasn't sleeping I was constantly worried about work.
This year was supposed to be different. My mum spoke to her friend and I've landed a job in a motel. Before I started I was told I will be working in the kitchen and that sometimes I will go and clean the rooms. What I didn't know then, was that I was supposed to: be a waitress, prepare all of the dishes, do motel reservations (pick up calls, manage booking platform), clean the kitchen, be a dishwasher and sometimes clean the rooms. And also, I was supposed to train to replace my coworker who was doing all of that alone, so she could go on vacation. Today was my third day and she was supposed to train me for everything but she was a bitch at every step of it. Then dinner rush came in and I got lost when preparing soups as I haven't worked in kitchen as a cook before. She them proceeded to tell me that I'm useless and that she won't get her vacation and such things and I cried a little, because I sometimes do when stressed. Then apologized but did my job anyways, even though I didn't really know what to do. I was washing dishes, making food and cleaning. Then she asked me to serve the food but I didn't know who ordered what, as in this workplace they don't write that down. Then our boss came in, so I asked if I could talk to her alone and told her about how I feel and then my coworker got all bitchy and told her I am basically a failure and that they'd be better of without me. So I then thought that if she says that at the beginning of my training, what would she say if I made a mistake a week, month after? And how is one person, working summer job, supposed to learn to do all of these things alone? So I decided to quit, because of the workload and people I worked with. Now, I am again jobless.
I wonder, was it right decision though?