i have extreme work anxiety and it’s sickening. my first real job i had was remote and i got fired on the whim while working in colombia (although that’s not why, it was discriminatory bs reason they used to get rid of me) and honestly that traumatized me so much. having to come back to the us and then being unemployed for months.
in may, i recently got a new remote job. i really love it, and the people are great. but i have this lingering fear that something bad will happen, since i didn’t see it coming the first time. on wednesdays (our meeting days) i get so anxious. i’m anxious on the calls and people can probably tell from the way i am stuttering and super cautious that one wrong action could plant that seed in someone’s mind to get rid of me. but i also don’t want to subconsciously manifest that either
also i just had a call with my boss and literally loud colombian spanish men selling their fruit down the street with their megaphone was soo loud and now i’m like sitting with anxiety because my boss definitely heard like i didn’t mute myself and she’s probably like wtf
working gives me so anxiety, especially when your livelihoood can be fucked in a blink of an eye. i’m working on expanding my personal business so i never have to deal again