I have severe insomnia, and when I deviate from a sleep schedule it throws me off track. As in, I will go days and days without rest and end up in the hospital or end up sleeping entire days away. I also find it incredibly hard to sleep, even when it is predictable time. I usually am lucky if I get 5 hours of consistent sleep a night. I've been like this since I was a teenager. It's PTSD related, and I take medication for it, have a formal diagnosis for it, and I alerted my job about this when I got hired on.
In Jan I started my current job, it's retail, I'm full time because otherwise I'd be homeless lol. Im making more than I was at my last gig, but still barely enough to get by- that's another story for another time. But when I was hired on I was told and confirmed that I would be able to have a predictable schedule, with stable work hours but rotating days off.
It's May, almost June, and I have neither. This week I didn't sleep for 4 days straight and was on the phone with my doctors office this morning begging them to see me because I needed a higher dose of my sleep aid. I was pacing my house all morning. I opened yesterday (6am-2:30) and I closed tonight (2:30-11pm) and I talked to my managers. “Currently full time associates can't have a closed schedule, you must have open availability, only part time associates can revise their availability” so now I have to talk to HR and Admin and all these other departments to get an accommodation so I DONT DIE FROM LACK OF SLEEP.
I just don't understand in what world AN ADULT. Who has FULL TIME work hours. DOESNT GET THE SCHEDULE THAT THEY WANT. But a 17 year old PART TIMER. Gets to work WHENEVER THEY FUCKING WANT. I just feel like I'm losing my mind (my brain feels like it's rotting from exhaustion) and I dont want to leave because fhia is the highest paying job ive ever had (I'm 21) and nothing else that is entry level pays higher and I still have one year left for my bachelor's degree. I just don't get it.
I got my medication and I'm finally starting to wind down, let's just hope I can wake up in time for my 9 am shift tomorrow