Just need to vent for a bit. I got laid off last September from my remote technical writing job. The job itself was very dull and not enjoyable for me, but I loved working remotely and the pay was decent. So when I started looking for work again, I kept applying for similar jobs with similar pay (or higher pay because I have more experience now) and have only gotten rejections and ghosted (basically, cowardly rejections).
So, I've had to keep lowering my standards, and I'm just applying to whatever I feel I can feasibly do without going crazy, and it just feels so bad. I have one prospective job right now, but the pay is much lower, it's just a three-month contract with no benefits, it's on-site, and sounds boring as hell.
I feel like such a failure. You're supposed to keep climbing up and making more money with experience, but instead I keep having to downgrade, and I have a bachelor's degree, and I'm in my 30s. Why is this happening? I have worked my ass off at every job to the point of burnout and it's like I'm being punished for it. I have hated every job I've ever had and felt so miserable when I had to get up every morning for work. I'm not even excited about this job. I just really need the money right now, so I guess I'll downgrade once again. I don't want to do this anymore. I'm depressed just thinking about having to take this job.