I’m sure this has been talked about in this Reddit thread in the past but it’s my turn now. I’m struggling, man. Like, really struggling.
2 years ago I worked at a manufacturing plant. It was hell. For over 7 years I worked for a narcissist who did not value their employees. I finally took a stand for myself and left, with $3k in my bank account and no backup plan, and no other experience.
Today, I can say that I’ve worked hard to find a work from home job, which is something I wanted my whole life. Just makes things easier. The thing is… I spent months off of work, and I finally found true happiness. I felt free. I had time to spend with my loved ones. I had time to learn and work on my art projects. I felt like a person again. Now, though this job is good and actually values me, I…I don’t know. I’m…miserable while working. And I don’t mean just bored or annoyed at what I’m doing, I’m miserable. My mind races. I get fatigued. So fatigued from this computer job that I don’t even have the energy to do anything after work.
I think the 9-5 is killing me. I don’t know how to get out of this pattern either. I realize that no job is going to work with my poor mental health, and no amount of therapy or pills aids my work life.
I guess I just had to rant a little. Has anybody found any way of negating this horrible heavy looming feeling of forever being trapped?