It’s so frustrating that the only thing I can do after I clock out of my 10 hour shift, make the 1.5 hour drive home, and feed my cats is fall right in bed. No time for hobbies, barely have time to do laundry, haven’t taken a vacation in 6 years. And sometimes I just dream of having a rich persons reason for checking into the hospital, like exhaustion, but knowing that will probably bankrupt me keeps me from even considering it. I spend so much time sleeping to take my mind to a place where life isn’t a constant March towards laboring away until I die.
Has it always been like this? Is it worse now? I wonder sometimes what happened to that 17 year old who thought she was going to change the lives of students when she graduated from college.
Now all I see is college, medical, home debt. Struggling to keep the necessities paid and a roof over my head, and just sleeping.