I'm honestly still in shock and processing it all. Feeling a form of survivorship bias. Like why was I one of the two chosen to stay while others were let go?
We were a close group of 10. 8, including my direct boss, were let go. No goodbyes, no contact, nothing. Just a quick 1 on 1 meeting, pack up your stuff and go. Just the other day we had a planning session on what we were all going to work on the next couple of months.
I can't even begin to imagine what they are going through on a personal level:
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My boss just had two kids
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One of my coworkers recently bought a HOUSE and MOVED for this job
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Another just got married
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One has a sick family member
Meanwhile there's me. A single guy with none of those things who is staying.
I slack off, do the bare minimum, always take an hour+ for lunch, show up 1/2 days in the office when I feel like it (3 days min required), and I never show up on time.
Crazy how everything unfolded today. First time having stress levels this high at work. Them keeping me makes me FEEL like I owe them something… but I still plan on leaving – which makes me feel worse because maybe one of them could have stayed over me? Idk what to do at this point.